I am so behind!

I am so behind!  I recently found a journal that I haven't written in in over 8 years and thankfully in that time I have some blogging, but it made me so sad to think of all that I didn't record and I am determined to get caught back up on blogging so I can print out the blog books to remember all these precious days, though they are long and frustrating at the time when I look back it is always with fondness.  I have been reminiscing on when I became a mother because this week my cousin Stephanie had her first baby after enduring a 45 hour labor without any medication.  And I was just reminded of the sacrifice mothers make and sometimes it is hard to remember those days of being pregnant and enduring labor and all those first months that are so hard and yet so magical.  I miss it.  Even though I have done it so many times, but with the twins I had a totally different experience, which changed me for sure and helped me appreciate the miracles that my children are even more, I still long for what could have been if I had carried them full term and nursed them both and not had to worry and stress over feeding and breathing and all issues related to prematurity. But I am sure we are all stronger for the journey we had to take to get the twins to where we are now, thriving, strong, amazing toddlers!  Toddlers, no longer fragile babies, but stubborn, have their own opinions, cranky, sweet, loving little humans!